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Thursday, October 7, 2010, 11:55 PM
Day 31:
School was good i guess. Studying as per normal at school. I putting in my effort. Was looking through my prelim result. well, failed one and that's english. Saw the class position of mine, 3! are you sure?! i think wrong la. haha! that paper not actual one. Mrs yeo told me it's hard to get A1 for POA when i said i wanted a A1 for POA. Is that some kind of discouraging or facing the fact? POA and maths are the only subjects that i could score that kind of result. Heckcare. Shall do my way.
POA Mock exam P2 - It's was a killer. St.gabriel papers is super duper hard. It suck brain dried.
Its been a month since ♥loves when NS le. Looks like everything is going quite well? I still miss him a lot. does he? hmm :) It's soon to be friday le. I can get to see ♥loves once again :DD but tml i got stay back after school. But will reach home early. I want to be early for me and not like the last time. Gonna see ♥loves tomorrow.
( sorry to my 2 sisters, i was unable to attend your graduation. But CONGRATS on Graduating :D )
well, today is quite a fruitful day. as i went for extra lesson after school to look for teacher , along with leekoon. I love the day, when i'm sick free! i can focus so much on my studies. I really take my hats off for the smart aleck in my class. If the result he got for prelim is exactly the same, he gotten 13 points. compared to me, over 15 le. i need to be ready to aim above 3 for all (excluding english ) I can do it. I know i can:DDD
There's a total of 3 mock exam for us. I used up a lot of brain juice and left my brain dried up. I'm currently recharging. Stayed back after school for extra physics one to one with teacher. hmm, at least i learnt a bit? 为了达到目的,我会付出一切.
Add on to my confidence, i have ♥loves supporting me. He is like my guidance counsellor for everything. Correct what, he's older :DD haha. But sometime i love the character of a little boy within him. SO CUTE♥. haha. should stop le la. Later he read liao, i don't no how face him. haha!
Today is a bad day. My sickness came to look for me again. I was down with flu the whole day. 'sneeze sneeze, sniff sniff'. I'm SICK of it. I have already stop blowing the air-con for a very long time when i went to sleep. When i'm having flu, I can't concentrate at all. I slept for a few periods after recess. that's the only way out. But god is just playing with me. He's not taking bad the flu. there's math mock exam after school. I told teacher that i couldn't make it as i wanted to go home after school. But classmates pushes it forward. My flu got worse. I really wonder, is it there's someone cursing me or rather missing me.
-Math mock exam, 77/90. I hope during Os i could produce the same result.
Communication between me and ♥loves does not break down. but lesser messages are going out. Hey, we are NOT quarreling. Just that timing were all bad. I slept at a time when i could talk to him. and wake up at a time when he's going to bed. I'm not feeling good. DDD:
Q: What would you do when you misses someone so badly, but you couldn't get to his side that moment ?
A: I'm actually staring into my phone's wallpaper, and touching it like i'm feeling him, it seems to be he's just next to me
Today, was a good day. I had no trouble in school. and i believe i'm doing just great. Along with the support of ♥loves, i'm growing confidence. haha! But erm, i still haven't been putting in my best. I shall 'ZOM ZOM' . Dear brain, please don't die on me the very last minute. i will give you your deserve break after my O's. So for now, 麻烦你了. After school today was the first time i one to one with teacher. hai. Regret now doing that MUCH MORE EARLIER. ( dear said: It never too late ) Mrs Lee go through where is my problem and i went home and try to fix it. Hope it work.
Happy Quote For Today : Mrs Lee said I have improved. My essay are mush more clearer........
* behind one don't hear, it's for me
♥Dearest ♥Dearest ♥Dearest oh.... Miss him more as day passes by. Always been messaging him, and i found the aqua jogging he had was quite amusing. haha! Guys see guys wear short box swim wear. haha! JOGGING ON SAT with you right? ( i needed some discipline, and you shall be the correct one ) :DDDDDD
I had school that day. A short day rather. Papers were being gone through. All i was thinking is for the time to pass quickly and i could see my♥ loves once again:D I had flu that day. so i rest for awhile. Who knows, i was late in fetching ♥loves. I had to make him wait for me. i feel so bad. I said before i would send him and fetch him. hai. Had a little chat with ♥loves. His face blushed and was feeling shy. haha. But i love the way he is. Just so perfect. ( he's gonna blush again when he see this ) ♥Loves make me eat flu medicine, and i fell asleep when i reach his house. Sorry for not accompanying.
Woke up the next day, later than him. The effect of the medicine is too strong. Aiyo. Managed to sober up and was normal :D caught anime with ♥loves on computer. Everything was so great. Had Mac breakfast! HOTCAKES! that was just so awesome! :) head back home with ♥dear. Get bathed and went down to Marina square. ♥Loves bought me to 'Yuki Yaki' again. GREAT! :DDDD sad for a moment about the waiting of seats. but glad we had. LUCKY! due to past experience we knew what to take, or is HE know what to take. Did the D.I.Y ice-cream and was FUNNNNN!!!!!! Late when i reach back home.
630am i wake up. rushed down to ♥loves house. He's booking in that day. i wanted to spend more time with him. He made me addict to another game called Flyff. haha. not bad ya. haha. who cares. my ♥loves is a gamer. I was being influence :D ( he's a good man hor ) we went down to have early dinner and after he's home, is preparation time. I am a lousy packer this week. i forget did i pack all his stuff in. was upset with myself. Send him all the way to CCK interchange and watch him up the bus. At that every moment, my tears started dropping. I miss him♥
Well, as what i had said. Papers that i took back today are english and geography. I failed both. sadly, my english can ever be improved anymore. I'm really afraid. i can't even hit 40/100. Watched me die during O level english. What am i gonna do? I'm getting a depression soon due to english. How to keep my sentence short and simple? am i not doing it so? what's with the expression? SAD!D:
( I'm so gonna finish up all TYS before O's )
I slept again in the afternoon again. Didn't went for night study. I hardly message ♥loves today. Our timings are all opposite. When he's free, i'm at school. When i'm home, he's training. When he's free again, i'm sleeping. hai. But after all, ♥loves called me up. I love his voice.
I having a stressful day. I took back most of my prelim papers. Though i fail none, it's not up to my own expectation. I'm little happy because at this point i can't afford to fail any D: But guess when tomorrow when english paper come, i think i will be a little moody. should start getting ready for O. the brightest student in our class is already ready. I'm lacking behind.
Back home and sleep. Whole body was better tense up. I slept for around 6 hours. That's too long. Little sister started screaming as my mother accidentally flush down one of her net ball shirt. MY ROOM IS NOT FREAKING SOUND PROOF! End up i flared up, i took the cane and start waving at her. ( now, i'm kind of regret for doing that ) haha!
School start and i have lesser time to message my ♥dearest. But he still message me consistently no matter what. The feeling that he gave me, is telling me he is thinking of me every now and then ( right? )
Today there isn't school for me. i sleep till 11am. i wanted to go raya. but it seems other than the host, i'm the only girl. my enthusiasm just came rushing downward. final decision, i not going. I spend my afternoon watching a few episode of naruto. Maybe i really should stop le. O's coming lei. I'm slowly feeling the fever of it. Get ready for night study at 7pm. today, i aim to score in maths. indeed, my doubt are all cleared. i'm a fast learner, but i'm quick in forgetting too. should practice more. i'm touching quite on TYS. Thanks ms winnie tan for today too. ( i keep bothering her with my question ) Ate dinner with friends and head home.
Called ♥loves when i'm on the way home. He seems tired. His voice getting softer over the phone. I having a feeling i was hoping not to come this 2 years. ( yunting, be like a water ) everything is gonna be just fine. ♥Loves seems to Fall asleep around now le. I shall also be asleep as promised.
HA! today is the last paper for prelim. It was science paper 1 ( MCQ ) i hope i do well la. i check over and over again. hope i manage to score like 30+ haha! too high. but ♥loves say canot aim just pass result. Went to eat Mac with friends. Had my craving of Mac breakfast. I want the hotcake and egg. haha! joke until 10+ and headed home. I slept as i was going to night study in the night. Bathed and went to school.
The first step i step into 'old library' was silent. but then, noises came. it wasn't as quiet as i think it would be. sat alone and began with my revision. POA! i aim to clarify my doubts about depreciation and i did it!Thanks ms liem. ( but she's not teaching my class anymore ) I made FULL use of my time at night study. Went to dinner with friends, joke and went back home.
♥loves training hasn't been quite tough today. at least he gotten a little rest as tml got test for IPPT. I want him pass. haha. shall go jogging someday with me. i doubt i could run at his pace. haha! JIAYOU my ♥dear. I will be supporting you mentally :D ♥♥♥
No school today. And ♥LOVES FINALLY BOOK OUT AFTER 12 DAYS! i'm like freaking excited and get ready to go down and 'fetch' him. i keep smiling to myself when i was on the train, thinking that i finally get to see ♥loves. i crazy liao. HTA shuttle bus jammed! ♥loves book out was delay by alot! he took public bus out and i didn't get to see him of the bus. He alight and i went to search for him. SAW ♥LOVES! arrgghh. HAPPY! ( couldn't hug as he wore uniform )
I stayed with him that day.
Woke up and was hungry. ♥loves bring me to eat ichiban sushi for lunch! Weird-dess thing is that ♥loves keep want fulfill my craving instead of his. haha. head home after lunch. get bathed and ♥dear off to his anime world. haha. - One piece,Fairy tail, bleach, naruto - when it's turn for naruto, ♥loves watches the shippudden episode. i was so obsessed with naurto fighting! a total of 3 hours on naruto. Had KFC than Off to watch movie with loves clique. 'The legend of the Fist' not bad. but like no nice ending. haha. Night out until 4. Stayed with him again.
I feel i had eaten some drowsy pill whenever i lay on ♥loves bed. Had ate porridge and slowly began to help ♥loves pack bag. i loves to pack bag, as i wanted everything to be perfect. before he book in we went to eat mac and see what he still need. head back. He bathed, and off to Choa chu kang. Sending him is the more difficult thing. Bid farewell when bus came. my tears almost came off. But i'm strong, so do loves! ♥♥♥
My day at home is always boring de. Same old doing. Some naruto episode, msg dearest whenever he can. Kept my stomach empty just for Yaqi's birthday BBQ. Went out to buy Yq's gift, and i really must thanks my sister for the ride :)))) appreciate it. haha! Bought belgium chocolate for her, and i hope she like it. I love the patterns that i choose, but flavour lei, jiu don't no le. haha! Went to her BBQ after that. Friends have all arrive. I had enough food to fill up my stomach, so overall it was not that bad. Went home after friends had left.
16 more hours, and my wish could be fulfilled. i don't no how to even react when i see ♥loves. it's been so long. ( he know my habit if we never meet for long ) haha! I would like just look and him and gave me a silly smile. first thing first, i wanna hug him when i can. hahah!
*that's all ba. im so excited, but sleepy at the moment. shall sleep early :)))
Science practical today. I was telling my sister that today is the 'bomb the lab' day. Prepared and went to school. So worried but excited la. First time exam on practical ma. Everything was so stunning. I have my own apparatus! and my own space to do my experiment :D So careless of me. i did my physic wrongly. But i have the time to do again. so it's okay :) Chemistry was tricky. We will see if which answer is correct. haha. Head to buddy's with friends to eat and chat. Home after that.
Rest, chatted with ♥loves and went downstair to play candles. ♥Loves was rather SO free today. He hardly need to go for training. I'm so excited about his shooting la. I want try lorr. ( ♥loves, I'm sorry about today when we were talking over the phone. I'm kinda bad ) My ♥loves is always so caring about me, despite that the situation he is in. I love him.♥♥♥
No school today, But science practical tomorrow. I think i will blow up the whole lab before exiting the examination. haha! Just kidding. I will do will de la.! I will give me best, and hopefully the experiment will turn out right :D Home, and NARUTO! I watch 11 episode at one go. Well done yunting. You didn't study. But you will now:) Went to Amkhub with sissy to do my nose. no different lei... hai. shall go again.
Today, i hope i can message ♥loves a little more. :)))))
Poa paper was a o.o . Paper 1 was approachable, but paper 2 was difficult. I feel like cutting my head off that instant! Didn't practice, and was reading much on theory. 活该i don't no how to do. lala. straight home and finally someone is home when i'm home during weekdays!!!! She was doing the internet problem and she sound like a man, and the person over the phone called her SIR. lols! Technology are so cool. The person could actually control our computer. ( sorry i kaisu )
Tuition at REACH was disgusting. The teacher is driving me crazy. I feel like scolding him when he called me a bimbo. ( he is referring to the stupid part ) he doesn't actually fit to be a tutor whereby he show no sincerity in helping students. I had enough. When i'm going back, I'm so going to hit back.* angry*
♥Loves phone was able to charged! haha. good good. chat with him awhile. He fall asleep quite fast today. i can feel he's getting tired and having aches all over him. Shall help me an mo mo when he book out. Can't wait to hug him * ops. haha.♥♥♥♥
I was home the whole day. I'm such a lousy girlfriend, someone who fall asleep and cannot hear any thing. ♥loves message me but i didn't get to reply. Feeling weak in the morning, mouth look parched. Told ♥loves, and he told me 500ml when i wake up! lols. ( he gotten water parade too much ) I'm damn obedient today la. wake up, vacuum the house, and study until now. though half way got break like an hour or so of rest and went to buy food. the rest i was so focus on POA. hope this subject won't fail me.
hai, ♥loves's phone is officially out of batt. But he was so sweet! he took his friends phone and message me. But i can't message him anymore even he have break in the middle of the day. Yunting ar, be strong. He will be booking out soon. Don't worry. ( he is always ♥♥missing you ) *I'm always awaiting :)))))))))
Today lei, i wake up like 4pm, because i slept at 4am. I'm losing my sleep, i think. I was home the whole day, expect i went to eat mac downstair with sisters for dinner. My craving was so special that i wanted beef! which is like fry or grill one. o.o I never eat the whole day and i saw this steamboat advertisement ma. I have been watching romantic drama this 2 days. die, i miss ♥loves overboard liao. haha, JK. I really miss him, but i will take care of myself de. Songs that i ONLY can hear is those that will make me think of him. haha, i'm crazy. ♥loves say later i crazy, he come out i don't no him.
I want to hear his voice so much. i want to talk to him as long as i can. But always afraid that his phone will soon be running low. even he book out already, i only can see him 3 days, and he is going to book in. everything is like changing slowly. Not change to bad stuff, but changing our physical contact. what i mean was message is lesser. seeing him became lesser. cannot see him whenever i want. cannot talk to him until specific timing. But well. ♥♥♥our mental is strong, and our ♥hearts♥ as one. He is my 精神知足. He never fail to message me even he only have 5 min of break. Even i don't reply( because sleeping or what ), he would at least send a messsage and than fall in. I wonder how can i adapt the life without him. 我想都不敢想.
I hate the subject that was tested for prelim. I lost 13 marks straight away. I actually left blanks in my exam scripts. I study so hard, why god play games with me. So many feature i have learn, but why that only feature i never learn came out? I feel like an idiot. 锥心甘!HOWWWWW????!!!!!
But the day after that was rather better due to my beloved bunch of friends that accompany me at my house. Games and movie. I really needed that so much. A great thanks to all of them.! ^^
I tried to stay happily. But i hear a music video, i think of ♥loves. I miss him deeply. 我过得好艰难,我没有试过这样。我真的好想他,想得我一直掉眼泪。 I don't want people to tell me 12days is easy. It's so not to me. The time that actually belong to me and ♥loves decrease alot. I really don't want complain. I really don't want add on his burden whereby he is already very tired inside. But,,,,I'm feeling so down lately. I miss him alot.♥♥♥
My mood today was so down. I don't no why. maybe it could be i feel the loneliness and seldom ♥loves is able to talk to me. Wanted to find ♥loves to talk to me, helping me to break the silence, But can't. I shall be a obedient girl and just concentrate on my studies + missing ♥loves. Internet is down the entire day. I'm using a portable now to blog. I have to blog, and i want to blog. Today physics paper was a dead paper to me. during and after the paper, i keep wondering what the hell have i been studying. I promise i won't waste really anymore days. i really cannot take it, revising the subject the day before, i will end up stressing myself alot.
The feel of school and friends turn out so cold to me. i go school is like for exam and go home. nah, nvm ba. ♥loves have always been so encouraging to me. don't get the wrong idea, i am not giving up. I can feel ( with my heart ) that I'm ♥missing♥ him. I used to tell him we have alot in common ( is that the right word?) or what i mean is telepathy. seriously la. haha.
* ♥loves just told me about his virgin shots, holding his first revolver. Total marks just nice marksman. haha! i wonder how is shooting feel like. o.o ** next time take and play (KIDDING) :)
well, i really need to get back to studies le. ( My mental must be strong ) -Gosh, my office hero is going to overdue again, and internet is still not okay-
TODAY CHEMISTRY PRELIM WAS A BOMB. Difficult topic like 'speed of reaction' and 'oxidation' never came out! i study so hard! haiyo. no use complaining right? shall see my result.
I actually planned to go to night study class at school like7-9pm. but i shall wait for the teacher i want to see to be on duty than i go ba. I am some geek that can study at home despite the noisiness. haha.
WII with sissy, bath, and chat awhile on phone with ♥lovesss.
HE PASS HIS WEAPON HANDLING TEST. he could take revolver! chatting with him is like the world has land some good things on me. I just love it. :DD today the camp treat them so nice, released them OTOT from 7. It used to be 10++ than free de. HE GOT ICE-CREAM for dinner too as a dessert. i will also have. 'MINI CORNETTO' but must buy, than share with him. ♥Loves love to bring me go eat nice food. FOR REAL MAN! haha. don't mind :P
*i realized sometime when i talk/speak/chat to others, ♥loves will always kinda part of my speech. haha. too many things involve him. haha. MWARKKS!
Shall go back to study, and eat when dinner is ready:)
Sleep late and wake up late. Straight went down northpoint to do my laptop with sissy(s). Thanks! haha. Lent my itouch to sister too :))) walked around and popular, and that means new pen! woohooooooo.
Have been dealing with my itunes for hours. shall update my blog and back to studies :D